Michael's Memorial Page.

time of death: 8:30 pm, February 22nd 2024

audio from 2022. I pivoted from another project to this.

there's a lot that could be said here. Even a year later though I still don't have the words.

I thought that things would have put myself back together after all this time, but I'm only now putting pencil to paper and making art again.

He survived long enough to see me graduate college. After moving back in with my family that October, I acted as his caretaker until he passed. After years of only seeing the illness through my laptop screen, being there with him everyday tinted my life.

It feels wrong focusing on myself in his memorial page, but his absense is impossible to fill. Who he was can't fit on an HTML page of a derelict website. So many stories and moments that I don't know how to communicate because I've forgotten how to grieve. On his deathbed, after he was no longer verbal, everything that I wanted to tell him caught in my throat and I just sat there holding his hand.

Going to add some pictures and more text tomorrow. I'll also figure out if I want this on my main page or if it should be squirreled away further into the site.

In November I moved out of my family's house so that I could live in an apartment with my partners. I just needed to be somewhere new.